Present time and inner wounds.

About a week ago happened to me that I fell and broke my knee while running. 

It would not be a big deal, but I had to think about why I actually fell, because running is not a sport where we shall be falling down and hitting the ground;-), under normal circumstances. 

First of all, I realised that I was not in the present moment, well, and spiritual enthusiasts certainly know that we should live in the present moment, because we only live there, the past is behind us, the future is not here either. I was in my head thinking about something and I didn't notice it was raining and in some places it was slippery to fall, as there was a rocky surface.

 Secondly, I didn't pay attention to my body, I was pretty tired and my legs felt like they weighed a hundred kilograms, I also went to bed late enough and ignored the fact that it was reflected on my body. After I fell, the process of self-blame and self-pity that I should turn around and go home and the inner critic started coming at me :-), it led nowhere ... 

In the end, I decided to keep running, because the fall was not such that it would not be possible. Which I didn't really regret then, because I met a lot of encouraging and nice people and it put me in a great mood that I practically forgot that something had happened to me.

It is interesting how life immediately shows us where we are supposed to be, in a present  moment otherwise we might hit the ground. This is were we needs to be, here and now and perceive our body trying to give signals, what is right for us and what not. 

Thirdly, it came to me one analogy connected with the wound. After this fall, I realized that when the knee is broken, it is not possible for us to walk completely with ease and we start to change the way we walk, we might more bend, we might more lean more on a healthy leg, and overall our body posture changes. Something similar happens to inner wounds unless they are healed. We protect them, and as soon as something approaches them, an event, an incident, but also an innocent remark, it starts to hurt if it concerns the area where we have the wound. And our whole attitude changes internally, because a wound is stored somewhere and the whole organism bypasses it, it protects because it hurts. He will find other ways to flow. But whenever something comes up that reminds us of a situation that may have happened 20 years ago, maybe as a child, it hurts and we react exaggeratedly and quite probably with anger, because anger is nothing but a covering mechanism for wounds.

If we can't heal old wounds, it is possible that our curvature will start to put some strain on us more regularly, might start inflamation process in the body, it might store something that does not belong there, it may also happen that we cannot leave a situation and this will be reflected on the bones, joints they stiffen, they are no more flexible. Or do we often have a problem with digestion? What is it that we can't "digest"? Or do we have a problem with the excretory system, what is it we can't let go of? We could continue ...

 .... so my wound gradually heals and my walking improves day by day. The body no longer has to bend in different ways and begins to find its equilibrum, and energies can flow as they should. Somehow it could be with inner wounds if they were healed. 

Do you have any situations somewhere that you overreact to? Maybe your body is trying to indicate something here and maybe it's even screaming for attention, isn't there something suppressed, ignored and unhealed from the past? The good news is that wounds can be healed or at least improved to certain extent, you just have to face it and admit it and stop ignoring it, maybe it won't be an easy path, maybe a lot of patience and courage will be needed. 

I wish you a lot of awareness and courage ;-). 

Mirka